Mar 05, 2010

A Balance in Life

We all struggle with some sort of balance. Whether it’s school and work. Work and games. Sleep and work. Working and not working. Games and girlfriend. Games and boyfriend. You can probably think “I spend way too much time doing this and not enough to this” and you got a balance issue. And if you don’t, I seriously applaud you.

I was an avid World of Warcraft player for a while. And for a while I quit the game because I got too wrapped up in it and it basically just wrecked everything I was working towards. I was obsessed with getting the highest gear to be in raids. I lost my job. I went into debt. I was unemployed for 2 years. Then I quit, I got tired of the bullshit in the gaming world.

Recently I started up again, probably two months ago at most. And recently, my interest in the game has been dying. When you live with your boyfriend and you go from spending time doing things and going out or watching movies together to just playing WoW every evening, it gets mundane. I miss watching movies with my boyfriend. I miss the dating life. Now I feel like I’ve gotten to the point where most evenings, I watch him raid or queue for random instances and stuff without even giving a thought about dinner or doing anything else. He’s becoming the WoW schmuck and I’m trying to not. I learned my lesson.

I guess this is to say, it’s not that I mind him playing. I watch him play at times. Hell, if he needed a healer, I’d log on and play with him. It’s just, I miss doing the quality things of actually spending time with him. The moments where it’s not just before he falls asleep or not before he leaves for work or in between raids or instances. Sometimes I want hugs without him holding onto the mouse. Augh.

How do I say it? I miss dating him.